Lovesick and The Lacuna Inc.

I'm sick. Lovesick. Sick of love. Tired of being in love. So this time I won't talk a single thing about love.

Why?

Like I told you before, I'm sick of this game called love thing. It's giving me headache. Andy Fletcher said, "When you're born a lover, you're born to suffer."* Even an old friend of mine said, if to love is to suffer then one must suffer to love**. So, do you think I must suffer from this lovesick to love?
I tried not to think of it, but it really meddlesome because it always enquiring me.

When you're like this, short time memory lost maybe the perfect solution. I can assure you it won't cost a thing to make you forget that you're in a lovesick situation for the next fifteen minutes. Unless you write something down to make you remember that you're still in that lovesick thing.
But I don't want to get anything like that. I've watched a movie about Leonard Shelby, a man with that kind of symptoms***, and I think it's troublesome. I mean, if you're forgetting something ENTIRELY, it really annoys you. I still want to keep in mind at least the thing I do like to do, such as walking alone just for wasting time, or watching the Fairly Odd Parents**** on the television. I just want to forget something partially, without losing ability to memorize what I like to do. Can I do just like that?

The next thing comes up to my mind is Lacuna Inc. It can remove the memory in your brain and won't give you any side effects or further damage. At least that's what it said on the leaflet. Joel Barish tried it, at least it works*****.
So I open the yellow pages, try to search a phrase that reads Lacuna Inc. Wait a minute, maybe it's Luna Inc? I'll scan them both. Yellow pages always comes in handy in a time like this, it really useful when you want something but don't really have a single clue.
But there's no sign about a incorporation named Lacuna or Luna that can manipulate your memories. There's a dolphin preservation named Luna Corp. But that's not what I'm looking for.

So I try to look for Lacuna and Luna phrase on the encyclopedia. Well, it doesn't useful enough, especially when you think that encyclopedia contains any information from all around the world. It only talks about Luna, the moon. Without any incorporation phrase followed. And when I remember the moon, I remember love, because we used to sleep on the grasses watching the moon.

But I don't want to talk a thing about love now. Because when I talk about love, I remember that love and I talked about the stars too, and the beautifulness it reflected in both of our eyes. And I held her hand, kissed her forehead gently, and we just slept there until the sun rose and woke us up...

Hey, enough talking about love! Do I have to repeat my words that I'm in a lovesick situation? So let's talk about anything else or I'm starting to puke.

I still try to think, think about something to removing this lovesick. Or at least something that can make me not to think of it for now. But thirty minutes passed by without any suggestion came to my mind.

How can I make myself not to think about anything??

Oh well, I think I'll just get some sleep then. But I can't think in my sleep, so I still can't find a way to make me not to think about something that can make me stop thinking about the lovesick for a moment now.

Hmmm... I'll go with the sleep thing for now.
I'll think about something when I wake up tomorrow.





Footnote:
* Goodnight Lovers, by Depeche Mode
** Just read the story at
http://budibadabadu.blogspot.com/2005/11/film-akhir-pekan.html
*** Memento, directed by Christoper Nolan. What a cool film!
**** I REALLY want a fairy parents like Cosmo and Wanda...
***** Have you watched Eternal Sunshine and The Spotless Mind?