New Year's Resolution

It's already new year now. I couldn't get some sleep so I think I'll just write things on the blog.

What would I write anyway?

Hmm, let's start with some unimportant things like it's already half hour past three in the morning. And it's already January 1st which means it is a new year for me, for us to face. And when it's new year, it always comes up with resolutions, goddam resolutions: something to achieve, something to put your hopes on.
What are my resolutions?

...dammit, I couldn't think about any. Maybe the liquor doesn't give me enough power to think. Hmm, I gave up drinking last year, I just hate it when I am on that tipsy thing. When I was drunk, I couldn't control the way I acted, or the way I spoke although maybe I was just blabbering about nonsense and crap or something like that. Plus the hangover and the puke at the closet ritual in the next morning was something I didn't like, yeah, it was such a bothersome thing.
But I think it is allright anyway since I didn't make such resolution as "Drink Liquor No More". See, it turns out perfectly okay if you don't make resolutions: you can't blame yourself when bad things happened.

Break. I need water. My mouth feels terribly bitter. It's the effect of the cigs, I'm smoking too much lately. I've been trying to quit smoking but it turns out just to be another big nonsense. My not-smoking-record last year is only a month and aftr that I just did helluvalot more smoking. Addicted to cigs, I am. But hey, it's fine anyway since I don't make "Give Up Smoking" as my resolutions last year. To tell you the truth, I just don't make any resolutions last year. I just don't feel like I have to make one.
So I don't feel bad when the liquors and cigs doesn't go away from me.

Come to think of it, I think I have to make resolutions to make a better of me. It's not that I don't want it too, but I can be such a guy with some poor memory. Luckily, I have Julia now. Yes, she likes to send me messages to keep reminding me things such as don't forget to meet the lecturer for the architecture project, don't forget to eat, don't forget this, don't forget that. She really cares a lot for me, and that's a thing that I like from her. It's like she wants me to be a better person. And because of that, I, myself, want to be better man too. Like the old Robbie said, Lord I'm doing all I can to be a better man. So why don't I make resolutions for this year to change myself better. Splendid, isn't it? You wouldn't know unless you try, that's what Julia often told me.

Julia, Julia... It's funny how she always comes up to my mind in the end.

Haha.

I'm gonna grab my cellphone, and sent her a message:
Julia, let's make our resolutions together...