~life moves on, summer dreams on!

"Time is something given to everyone with the same amount. That's why we must use it well.
Time changes our surroundings. Time changes us. Time changes you."
-something I read somewhere-


Funny how you wake up in the morning and you realized you've done so many bad things in life. Yep, slothness made me feel lazy. But now I'm fixing everything's up, and I'm happy about it.

Happy?

Yep, never been happy like this before. I got to go to work and that means new situation, new things I will meet. But the fact that I like it is something I didn't think of it before. Maybe it's like you just afraid of something you didn't know, but it turns out to be something you really like to do.

Or maybe she really changed my mind, but nevermind. I'm doing this for myself, for sure. I'm just glad that I met her; I learned so many things from her. And I feel glad to let her go. I have more time and spaces for myself now. Olivia came back to me, but I don't want to think about any kind of relationships right now. I'm just love the situation I am in with the works, works, and works (which also means money, money, and money of course...).

Or maybe, after getting sober while last night you're getting on with bottles of JackD (dammit you guys, haha), you could really thinks clearly enough to realize things. What have I done, why am I here, and questions like that. The drinking and getting drunk is an action to escape, but when you're sober you turn your back and you could see well enough to realize your mistakes.

I used to be too lazy too work, but wow, time really changes people including me.
Funny it is, because I feel good. Maybe I turns out to be a workaholic too, you'll never know. Neither do I, haha.

Love my life? Yes, I love my life now for sure, and that's not including her. I feel a little bit lonely though, but last night Olivia said to me,
"Loneliness linger, but everything's gonna be alright at its time.."
So, they just suppose to happen. It's normal, I think. And I'll get over it.

Hmm, it's 8 already? Well, I've got to work now. Remember people, always turns your internet off when you're working, it's just another kind of distraction that makes your don't do your works. Haha, goodbye for now everyone, I'll see you later after the work is done.